The Beginning!

All through high school I was a solid 120 lbs. I could eat whatever I wanted and never gained a pound. Going into college my freshmen year I was in the best shape of my life! Spending a couple nights a week at the school's gym and working out with my roommate Danielle. December of 2008 I found out I was expeccting my first child. I still had the same mindset that I could eat whatever and would be just fine! WRONG! At the end of my pregnancy with Parker I weighed in at 180 lbs! I couldn't believe it. Of course right after I had him I dropped a quick 20 lbs just from labor and delivery and breast feeding. I was a steady 160 lbs for about a year and the weight eventually started to come off.....slowly. VERY slowly. I wasn't really doing anything to try to lose weight, I never really had to before. I was really active in high school so it didn't really matter what I ate. I ended up getting down to 130 lbs when I found out I was pregnant in 2011 with our second little boy! I tried really hard to be careful not to use the "I'm eating for two" excuse. I did GREAT only gaining 5 lbs my first 5 months of pregnancy. After the sixth month, I started to gain a little more. Again, by the end of this pregnancy I was back up to 175 lbs. After having Westin, I stayed around 160-165. I started Insanity and quickly learned it wasn't for me quite yet. I wasn't eating healthy like I should. I hated wearing shorts in the summer, I hated my body. Everything about it I HATED. It's a daily routine that I get frusterated so easily and I truly don't think it's anyones fault but my own. (super hard to admit lol) I finally have decided I'm DONE! I want to see how great I can be and how HAPPY I can be. I have an amazing life, but the berrier of me not being happy with myself is creating a huge wall. I joined the "Fitness Girls" facebook page for inspiration. I also began weight watchers and after my second weigh in I am down 8 lbs from where I started at 160 lbs. Monday morning I begin a core training class with my old coaches from the gym I cheered at in high school. Jena, one of my coaches daughters and a sweet friend, posted a photo a year after having her babies and she looked incredible. I finally decided this is it. I'm not getting any younger, it's not going to get any easier, I am doing this NOW! I am so excited to begin my journey and I am going to do anything I can to be sure to get to where I want to be. I'm not creating deadlines for when I want to be where. I just want to feel better about myself as a person, mother, and someday soon wife. I want to be the best of the best of ME! <3